I'm enjoying focus. Instead of feeling like my attention is divided all the time and that I require constant stimulation, I have rid myself of the habit of multitasking as part of my entertainment. I mentioned previously that I am easily bored and always seek stimuli. While this is certainly still true, I am talking about a related problem.
You see, since the advent of streaming/downloading video and smartphones, I have noticed the tendency to never pay attention to whatever it is I am doing while supposedly watching TV. I get highly irritable and impatient with any kind of waiting when doing anything with a computer or the internet. While this is not responsible for my general twitchiness, it certainly has aggravated the condition. For example, I would play video games, listen to podcasts or internet radio, and check my phone during load times. After a couple of weeks of deprivation, the mere idea of doing this seems very alien. Beyond watching stuff, I don't feel nearly as fragmented when I am doing any activity. It no longer feels like I am in 8 places at once. I still crave an active mind, but now I need a single thing to occupy it.
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